sunday thoughts

just some of my thoughts on this sunday...


smartphones annoy me. don't get me wrong i love my iPhone with the rest of you, but what annoys me with smartphones is how they have amplified our need for instant gratification. during conversation with people we often struggle with remembering basic facts or making a decision (restaurants, purchases); or we feel compelled to share a video we watched five minutes earlier.
no problem, i have a smartphone. google can help me with all of those problems. and also while my smartphone is helping me remember who the 37th president was, it also has now stifled the conversation we were having about nixon. because i can't possibly look up information on my phone and pay attention to you anymore. basically the smartphone allows me to politely say "go fuck yourself" or "i'm done talking to you" without actually having to say anything. smartphones allow us to be rude. and most of the time without realizing it. we just stop talking to "google" something. or turn on an obnoxious video of a dancing cat that has now disrupted the entire coffee shop.
thank you smartphone.

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work is a part of life. work is a huge part of life. we must work to live. it is how we earn money. we must have money to survive. in my 15+ years of working, what i have yet to understand is why people continue to work in a job they hate/are no good at.
i understand there may be times in your life where money is more important than meaning or happiness at work. sometimes we have to work to live and that doesn't necessary include doing what we love. however, it can't be that way all the time. i could never imagine having a job that i hated. or even a job that i didn't like. if you are going to devote your time to something, shouldn't you enjoy doing it? and if you are going to devote your time to something 20-40 hours/week, shouldn't you utilize the skills/degrees/education/experiences/passions you have? if you are going to commit to allowing someone to pay you for your service, shouldn't you be good at it? and shouldn't it be something you enjoy doing?
because if you love going to work everyday, don't you think you'd enjoy it more and do a wayyyyy better job at it than if you HATED it?
could you imagine having a job where you are always searching for friday?
i would loathe that.
i am passionate about many things. and i want to spend my life doing them. i don't want to waste my time (or someone else's money) doing something i don't love.
what a waste of this life.


xoxo,
ks

our fire keeps on growing.

keith and i have been together for 5 years. 5 amazing, wonderful years.

what takes my breath away is our constant passion for each other. sure there are days when i just wish that he would leave me alone. you know those days, when work/school has been hell. and all you want to do is curl up in your bed and have the world stop bothering you. well, that includes your fiance/husband/significant other too.

but most days, i absolutely love having him by my side. he makes me laugh until i cry. he comforts me. he makes me feel beautiful...when i am wearing a hoodie and my hair is a wreck. our passion hasn't faultered from when we first started dating. you know what i am talking about...that new, fresh relationship heat and fire.
somedays that is exactly how we behave, like we just started seeing each other. we are so excited by each other. perhaps it is the pre-wedding excitement. but i tend to think it's just the way we are.

i know you go through those days where you think "gosh, i don't think i could possibly love him any more." and then you wonder where all of these gushing feelings came from. because you love your boyfriend/husband everyday, but why does today feel different? why does today feel better? more exciting? more amazing?

that is how i am feeling now. and have been. when keith isn't around, i miss him. i seriously miss him. and can't wait for him to get home. so that we can do things together. he amazes me everyday with the passionate, caring, and loving man that he is.

we are getting married in less than FOUR months. and my heart can't wait to start our life and continue this awesome journey that we have been on. i truly have found the love of my life. ♥ :)